I cant sum enough how much disgust I have for this life.
Is it right?
Nothing's up for your judgement.

I am beginning to resent the so called tranquility of my life.
Am I gonna accept this?
How vivid the vision is for the rest of my life?
I can even see my own cold body lying somewhere(and wherever) in years (define how many that will be) to come.
One life?
That's it?

And the worst thing that I come to figure up lately is that I really didnt have much positive likings for myself.

I demand attention yet I hate them.
I dont want to give a damn of others' feelings cos' it is really wearing me up.BUT I hate it when my feelings are left for myself to care for.(and I dont care!)
I easily abuse others' love for me and I don't think I have much of love for others but myself!
I am unfamthomable!
My mood swings as hard as that pendulum clock.


And when such mood sinks in,I hate the world.
I hate to see a tiny bit of crowd.

And I hate it when I am quick enough to switch on that smile whenever faces I or he know come to us.
I hate it when I am quick enough to put on my 'professionalism' suit whenever calls of work come to me even when I'm in a black mood.

I wish I could ask them to F off for the day.
Why cant they see me for what mood I am in?
Or really is that piece of courtesy that important cos' we all wanna leave a good impression?
Then that is not considered hypocoristic?


Well then..HEHEEHEHEH. xD

I'm smiling cos' I am really unhappy then~


And of all,I hate it when I'm never rich, never feeling rich, never am really monetary and unmonetary rich.
Content,be content.
Or it is contend that I seek?
I look at the things I want.
They are forever lying in that list.
Why aren't I striking them off?



Ok whatever.
The rants never end,the dissatisfaction never ease.

I think I am just demanding some attention.

Like why do I deserve!